With the weekend of love fast approaching, I wanted to throw out a little something as to what I am doing this weekend (gifts & activities).
Time for part 2 of my mental illness journey! Find Part 1 here. I lightly mentioned my life journey with anxiety previously, and this post is a further peak through that window.
Unlike depression, anxiety has been a companion for many years. I’m at a point now where I can no longer remember when my anxiety even began…that’s how integrated it is into my life.
Sipping on: Dilmah Blackcurrant Tea, Water & Prosecco
Catching up on: Zoella Vlogmas Videos
After almost two years, I finally returned to NYC. It amazed me how long it had actually been. I hold this place so close to my heart that even when we are separated, it always feels close to me. Every time I return, I must admit, it makes me miss it more and more. My dream of living in a city always ignites. Last weekend, I was in that euphoric state of mind.
PSA: I am sharing my journey for me. Admitting what has been happening is one of the hardest things I have ever done, and I am still not at that level of admitting what’s happening to a lot of people I know. This is my first step forward. Mental health is serious and anyone struggling should always be treated with respect. If you aren’t sure if your words to someone in this situation are appropriate, always ask yourself “would I say this to someone who has a physical illness, like cancer?” Be respectful. Always. Plain and Simple.
My Story: There are two mental health issues that I have been living with – one has been a loyal companion for the better part of my life, while the other is a newer surprise. They are: anxiety and depression. While I accept all the challenges that anxiety has to offer, depression was something I was just not equipped to handle/comprehend.
While my days here might not be as cold as normal, there is still plenty of darkness and chills that exist in the later nights to send me into a “Cozy Holiday” feeling. Christmas is a bittersweet time for me – whilst I adore the joy and happiness that fills the air, it always saddens me to know that, like everything else, it must eventually end. But while I could sit and dwell upon this fact for endless hours, I must remember it’s only the beginnings of this festive period! I am going to make the most out of it, and that starts with a typical, cozy night.
Happy Birthday to me! Officially twenty-four now (as of Sunday) and feeling pretty much the same as I did Saturday night at 23. Though I must say, Saturday I did something I thought I wouldn’t be able to do for years…I signed a lease to my new car! While I will not get it until mid-December, I’m still nervously excited!